What do you do when after six months of intense spiritual highs and lows, you suddenly fall flat with God? My fundamental beliefs about my faith haven't changed. I still believe what I have for pretty much my entire life and am convinced of the truths I cling to as the meaning behind why I'm here. Yet, for all my belief, my faith has become routine. I believe it and I live it, but it isn't alive in me. It isn't giving me the vibrancy, the complete joy that God promises to his faithful children.
A few days of thinking about it have only made it more frustrating to me. The root of the problem appears to stem from this: now that the most recent trial of my life has fully past and I feel healed of what I thought would never be healed, my willful independence has returned. It's not that I'm selfish, but rather incredibly self-reliant. Makes it difficult to rely on a God who demands my complete reliance. I know the recipe for getting out of this "rut"
Pray for God to change my heart and ignite my faith
Dig into the Bible
But right now, all of it is just going through the motions. God is quiet.
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